J loves me.
There is no way he can have done all he did w/o having at least a little genuine love for me...
And yet we are having a slow start at communicating GDKP-wise.
Some is because Jason doesn't realize how DIFFERENT I am than before, but only in one sense: I have PTSD and it keeps getting triggered cuz having BASIC NEEDS met isn't an assumption i have the luxury of making nowadays.
And yet he also doesn't realize how much THE SAME I am than before.
MSGs, It doesn't matter why your goat is in estranged. S/he's not likely to want to show you his/her heart again until you either give it time enough to mend with a cast or ... minimally, quit poking it where it hurts!
Dopamine is a real need.
We are born programmed to respect our parents w a short few years of rebellion during transition out of childhood. If YOU can't see our respect for you, it is YOUR responsibility to look for our efforts.
And if we fucked up, We're your kids! And if you fucked up, Quit Poking us & let us miss you!
Somewhere along the line we are going to see your kindness in someone else and want to come back to you.
From our perspective, Give us time to heal!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jHPOzQzk9Qo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JrdEMERq8MA
There is no way he can have done all he did w/o having at least a little genuine love for me...
And yet we are having a slow start at communicating GDKP-wise.
Some is because Jason doesn't realize how DIFFERENT I am than before, but only in one sense: I have PTSD and it keeps getting triggered cuz having BASIC NEEDS met isn't an assumption i have the luxury of making nowadays.
And yet he also doesn't realize how much THE SAME I am than before.
It's kinda like a newly broken right arm.
It HURTS!
and that is DISTRACTING!
But the rest of me is still me
The pain will go away.
New bone will be stronger than the old.
But can we PLEASE...
...PLEASE...
...PLEASE...
just acknowledge what the x-ray and doctors said?
LEAVE IT ALONE! Let it mend!
Quit poking it!
first do no harm
We'll put a cast on it &
after it's rested awhile
we can reassess
if you'll need to learn to write with your left hand.
(Get used to marking a few big Xs meanwhile!)
As soon as we have a chance to
reassess
we can re-acclimate
to the naked reality
of whether or not it will ever be
strong enough
& fine-motor attuned enough
to do everything YOU wanted to do with it before.
MSGs, It doesn't matter why your goat is in estranged. S/he's not likely to want to show you his/her heart again until you either give it time enough to mend with a cast or ... minimally, quit poking it where it hurts!
Dopamine is a real need.
We are born programmed to respect our parents w a short few years of rebellion during transition out of childhood. If YOU can't see our respect for you, it is YOUR responsibility to look for our efforts.
And if we fucked up, We're your kids! And if you fucked up, Quit Poking us & let us miss you!
Somewhere along the line we are going to see your kindness in someone else and want to come back to you.
From our perspective, Give us time to heal!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jHPOzQzk9Qo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JrdEMERq8MA
